Waking Up

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Psalm 111:10). This fear descends on us from on High. It is a spiritual feeling, firstly of God and then of us ourselves. We live in a state of awe by virtue of the presence of the Living God together with awareness of our own impurity. This fear places us before the Face of God to be judged by Him. We have fallen so low that our distress over ourselves turns into profound suffering, more painful than the torments of seeing ourselves in the darkness of ignorance, in the paralysis of non-feeling, in slavery to the passions. The dread is our awakening from the age-old sleep in sin. It brings us the light of perception – on the one hand, of our fatal condition and, on the other, of the holiness of God. It is an astonishing phenomenon – without its naturally purificative action the way to perfect love of God will not be opened to us. It is not only ‘the beginning of wisdom’ but of love, too. It will also alarm our soul with a revelation of ourselves, as we are, and bind us to God in longing to be with Him.

From We Shall See Him As He Is by the Elder Sophrony.

I remember the intense joy of waking up on Christmas morning as a child. The anticipation of the surprise to come was overwhelming. My father could be quite creative when my older brother and I were very young. I recall that my brother had once asked for a “stalk of Bananas,” something we had only seen in books. That my father actually found one and had it under the tree was beyond belief that Christmas Day. Every house in the neighborhood had a share in that surplus!

As years have gone by, waking up has taken on many different and more profound meanings – and increasing difficulty. The sleep that a child tosses aside so easily in anticipation of the joy that awaits him is a very light blanket indeed compared to the heaviness of delusion in which we so easily rest in later years.

Orthodox theology rests, finally, in the utter certainty of the knowledge of God. We do not simply speak about God – we knowHim. Anything less than such a knowledge would be an emptiness and speculation. No dogma is secure if it rests merely on bald assertion.

It is for this same reason that perhaps the most important spiritual discipline in the Orthodox life is to be freed from delusion. If you read the Philokalia, or, better yet, Branchaninov’s The Arena, you will hear the repeated chorus of warnings against spiritual delusion. It matters because there is such a thing as being awake and not being deluded.

None of us lives free from all delusion – none other than perhaps the greatest saints. But the process of awakening is itself the beginning of the spiritual life. It is the fear of God in the sense used by Fr. Sophrony and in the Scriptures that marks that awakening. Indeed, it begins with believing that there actually is a God, which strangely, is far less common than you would think.

The entrance of Christ into the world on that first Christmas morning was also an awakening. Mary was awake and understood what it meant to be the handmaiden of the Lord. Joseph, that good man, was awake and understood what it meant to act in obedience. The wise men were awake and found the Daystar from on High. The Shepherds were awake and heard the night sing.

But Herod slept, and doubtless dreamed. The soldiers who kept his orders slept with the peace that comes from a mission accomplished. The better part of the whole world slept, though there were some, like watchful children, who knew that joy was coming. The lightest footfall will arouse such sleepers.

Awake, O Sleeper, and rise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light.


About Fr. Stephen Freeman

Fr. Stephen is a priest of the Orthodox Church in America, Pastor Emeritus of St. Anne Orthodox Church in Oak Ridge, Tennessee. He is also author of Everywhere Present and the Glory to God podcast series.





12 responses to “Waking Up”

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  2. Elizabeth Avatar

    Father Bless! Thank you for this.

  3. davdperi Avatar

    Could you please tell us which vol in the Philokalia, “The Arena” is in? Thank you and many blessings during this season which began in the middle of November.

  4. Jane Avatar

    Davidperi, In case Fr Stephen doesn’t have a moment today, The Arena was written by Bishop Ignatius Brianchaninov and published in 1867 in St Petersburg. English translation by Fr Lazarus Moore published in Madra in 1970, then in 1982 by Holy Trinity Monastery, Jordanville. You wil be able to get it from Eighth Day books or pretty well any Orthodox bookstore. Fr Thoma Hopko has listed it among the 5 books (starting with the Bible!) that we ought to be reading constantly!

  5. tiffaniv Avatar

    Father Bless!

    This is excellent:)

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  7. mike Avatar

    ….this post brings to mind the many people i know who are not only deluded but seemingly INTENTIONALLY choose to believe a lie..’un-truth’ (for political correctness)…it occurs frequently in a dysfunctional setting and is commonly refered to as “Denial”…its surprising how many of us cant face ‘the truth’ and its even more interesting the ways we develop in our lives to avoid it….In the context of religion often we human beings tend to take the path of least resistance and most of us actually REFUSE to hear anything that would ‘disturb the peace’ so to speak…im discovering in my own life that i cant change or even help those i see living in delusion regardless of its context..unless God gets there first……….have Mercy..

  8. fatherstephen Avatar

    Mike This should not be surprising. Much mercy, and patience are required.,

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  9. easton Avatar

    thank you for this, father stephen. think we should examine our own delusions before trying to change others.

  10. Ibn Battenti Avatar
    Ibn Battenti

    Well said Easton. You see, God sees the inner man but we (usually) see only the shell…

  11. Darlene Avatar

    Often, others who are close to us see what our delusions are before we do!

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