The Apocalypse of Christmas

Few people think of Christmas as the End of the World. We have one set of feelings and thoughts for the former and another set for the latter. Christmas, taken by itself, seems quite harmless and able to be adopted or adapted (in one way or another) by cultures at large. Indeed, some cultures adopt Christmas and forget about the Child in the Manger. A feast of good feelings, goodwill among men (etc.), a bit of family and seasonal food, and you have a feast that is free of offense allowing it, incidentally, to be monetized for the widest possible consumption.

The End of the World, on the other hand, suggests judgment, wars, and rumors of wars, and, of course, the very offensive reminder that this world will not last and neither will we. As such, apocalyptic ideas are useful only as fantasy entertainment, a bit of a scare that disappears when the theater’s lights come back up.

Popular culture has lost the meaning of the word “apocalypse” (and its derivatives). It has been drowned in a world of half-baked Christian misuse and Hollywood nightmares. Indeed, the word has been bastardized into “snow-pocalypse,” and other such faux events. It now seems to mean nothing more than “a big thing.”

The word has a much more important place in theology. “Apocalypse” means to reveal that which is hidden. St. Paul describes the whole of the Christian gospel in this manner:

“…the word of God, the mystery which has been hidden from ages and from generations, but now has been revealed to His saints. To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” (Colossians 1:24–27)

In this proper sense, the whole of the gospel is “apocalyptic.” It is something which, though once hidden from the world, is now revealed and made known.

Christmas is an apocalyptic event. It happens in “hiding.” Word leaks out and the wicked king, Herod, goes on the warpath. Through the silent means of a star, wise men from Persia make their way to Bethlehem, inadvertently alerting the wicked king. The mystery, however, is so well hidden that St. Paul tells us that the “princes of this world” (demonic forces) did not really understand what they were doing when they crucified the Lord of Glory (1Cor. 2:8).

We take the Christmas story for granted, reducing this great mystery to a card with well wishes. What was taking place, however, was truly “apocalyptic.” In that moment (or in the moment of the Annunciation nine months earlier) the world was turned inside out. The Lord of Glory, the Logos of God, the very meaning of the universe itself, entered our history and became a “historical figure.” The Godhead was now “veiled in flesh.” Simple shepherds kept watch with the very angels of heaven. Bethlehem (the “house of bread”), became the place where the Bread of Life Himself was first seen. In Him, all of the world would be fed – our true hunger banished.

American horror movies (that deeply misunderstand the apocalypse) have made much of an impending doom – various schemes in which people try to prevent the anti-Christ from being born. They fail to understand the nature of the apocalypse (they’ve spent too much time reading popular Protestant fiction). What has been hidden from the ages and is made manifest in the birth of the Christ Child is the entry into our world of the Kingdom of God. It is the birth of our salvation. The true Apocalypse is good news.

Evil is not hidden, except to the extent that it uses lies, darkness, and deception to distract our attention. We can see its work of chaos, murder, and deceit all around us. The apocalypse prophesied in the Scriptures is not the revelation of evil, but the final manifestation of the Good, the triumph of the Kingdom of God.

“Then comes the end, when He delivers the kingdom to God the Father, when He puts an end to all rule and all authority and power. For He must reign till He has put all enemies under His feet. The last enemy that will be destroyed is death.” (1 Corinthians 15:24–26)

And,

“Behold, I tell you a mystery: We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed—in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. So when this corruptible has put on incorruption, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.”” (1 Corinthians 15:51–54)

But, just as Christ coming as a babe was hidden from those wicked powers, so His presence among us now, and His coming in the End, remains hidden. Frequently, Christians themselves fail to see more than a system of moral teaching and a promise of life after death. The Kingdom itself (which is “in you”) is unknown. Where, in truth, we are already resident aliens, we, instead, live as though this world is our home and “working the system” our only hope.

There is a purpose in the hiddenness of God’s work. The depth of that mystery is found in the reality of the human heart. Christ teaches:

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.” (Matthew 7:7–8)

The mystery of the Kingdom of God is made known to a heart that asks, that seeks, that knocks. It is a heart that has returned to the desire that is given to us in the gift of our nature. It represents the re-awakening of the heart, the re-birth of the true self and the re-discovery of wonder.

Bound in a world of information that falsely imagines that knowledge, power, management, and expertise are the secrets to well-being, we fail to see that such an orientation is itself the seat of our sickness. The heart that asks, seeks, and knocks is a heart that reflects the heart of God. It is a mode of being that allows us to rightly love, to properly desire, and to see what is hidden from the grasping hands of a controlling mastery.

The apocalypse of Christmas, the revelation of God-made-man, is also the revelation of the image of God in man. It teases us and beckons our hearts to the hidden things. The apocalypse is revealed within us.

Ask to know Him. Seek to find Him. Knock on the closed door of the heart until a crack is found.

Christ is born!

About Fr. Stephen Freeman

Fr. Stephen is a retired Archpriest of the Orthodox Church in America. He is also author of Everywhere Present: Christianity in a One-Storey Universe, and Face to Face: Knowing God Beyond Our Shame, as well as the Glory to God podcast series on Ancient Faith Radio.



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62 responses to “The Apocalypse of Christmas”

  1. John Avatar
    John

    Brilliant! Every Christian should read this post. Maybe your next book should be about the apocalypse.

  2. Michael Welchert Avatar
    Michael Welchert

    Great work…the missing creature from nearly all manger scenes is the red dragon

  3. Johnpaul Humphrey Avatar
    Johnpaul Humphrey

    I feel like T. S. Elliot touches on a similar theme at the end of his poem “The Journey of the Magi”

    were we led all that way for Birth or Death?
    There was a Birth, certainly,
    We had evidence and no doubt. I had seen birth and death,
    But had thought they were different;
    this Birth was Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
    We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
    But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
    With an alien people clutching their gods.
    I should be glad of another death.

  4. Ilya Sterie Avatar
    Ilya Sterie

    Glorify Him!

    Thank you, Father, for this wonderful message. Wishing you wonderful holidays and a good New Year ahead.

    Ioana

  5. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Michael,
    Yes. The red dragon was off-scene, murdering the 10,000 Holy Innocents. Christmas is a dangerous business.

  6. April Roberts Avatar
    April Roberts

    Thank you for this powerful reflection. Blessings in the New Year.

  7. Michael Bauman Avatar
    Michael Bauman

    Father, some things are now much more clear. Thank you. Does not genuine repentance and being submerged in the Church helpful in having Christmas in our heart?

  8. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Michael,
    No doubt, this is true.

  9. Fr. Alexander Kuchta Avatar
    Fr. Alexander Kuchta

    Thank you for this important meditation!

  10. Ziton Avatar
    Ziton

    Thank you again. You have once again helped take off the wrapping for us to reveal the truth of our Christmas gift. Puns on the topic intended.

    My favourite Christmas carol is the third verse of O Little Town of Bethlehem (Bread City!) that somehow manages to capture the nature of this revelation like almost nothing else, and so sweetly:

    “How silently, how silently
    The wondrous gift is given!
    So God imparts to human hearts
    The blessings of His heaven.
    No ear may hear His coming;
    But in this world of sin,
    Where meek souls will receive Him,
    Still The dear Christ enters in.”

  11. Manfred Meyer Avatar
    Manfred Meyer

    “Few people think of Christmas as the End of the World.”

    — In fact, most Christians do. The Roman Catholic lectionary always (A year, B year, C year) starts Advent with readings about the end of the world.

  12. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Manfred,
    To push back a bit: I was an Anglican priest for 20 years where the same lectionary (as the Catholic) prevailed in the Advent season. Within that experience, I still don’t think most people connected Christmas with the end of the world – and certainly not with the proper understanding of that end as a true apocalypse. My experience was that the Advent lessons were seen as “two-fold” – concerning the 1st Advent and the 2nd Advent – but did not make any particular connections between them (other than to contrast them).

    Do you assume that most Catholics think in accordance with their lectionaries? I suspect many of their priests would find that to be a startling assumption.

  13. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Thank you, Father Alexander. Christ is born!

  14. Manfred Meyer Avatar
    Manfred Meyer

    @FatherStephen

    “Do you assume that most Catholics think in accordance with their lectionaries? I suspect many of their priests would find that to be a startling assumption.”

    I would find it a startling assumption that they rather think in accordance with Hollywood movies or popular Protestant novels.
    Even with Mass attendance in rapid decline in some areas of the world: I am sure the lectionary reaches, and influences, far more Catholics than Hollywood, year after year, week after week.

    To push back a little:
    Do you think that Roman Catholic Christians in Peru, in Nigeria, in India, in the Philippines, whether regular church goers or not, are in their concept of Christmas more influenced by Hollywood horror movies or popular Protestant novels than by the lectionary?
    I suspect their priests would find that a startling assumption.

  15. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Manfred,
    I would like to think that the lectionary plays a vital part in their thinking. However, I suspect that Hollywood has been more influential…including almost every place where American culture has made great inroads. Indeed, the incredible growth of Evangelical Protestantism and Pentecostalism in parts of the Third world that were, until recently, dominantly Catholic, points to a growth of American culture and its popular assumptions almost everywhere.

    But, it’s not really an argument worth having. Interestingly, according to a 2019 Pew Research Center survey, only 31% (less than one third) of American Catholics believe the Eucharist to truly be the Body and Blood of Christ. That’s a central teaching. But, perhaps your assumptions regarding the Third World are true. May God give them grace.

    I hope you’re not reading my comments viz. people and the lectionary as somehow anti-Catholic. That would be a truly wrong read.

  16. Manfred Meyer Avatar
    Manfred Meyer

    @FatherStephen

    No, I am not reading your comments as anti-Catholic (and I am — still — Orthodox, though probably on my way out).

    I generally don’t think it is beneficial at all to paint the situation more than necessary as a there being only a few Christians who really grasp things correctly and a vast surrounding ignorant, or even hostile, culture — it will discourage the timid and less confident and make the bigots and the radicals more noisy and more influential.

  17. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Manfred,
    I think that though my writings are strongly critical of modern culture – I don’t think I spend time disparaging Christians, per se. I can only judge things by the general tenor of comments and conversations over the course of the past 18 years or so that I’ve been posting articles – as well as my conversations with thousands across the country during speaking engagements. The fact is, I see the Church growing (both the Orthodox and the Catholic) very widely. I’m greatly encouraged by it. But we do well to be aware of what we are up against in our cultural context.

    I’m sorry that you’re possibly “on the way out” and pray that you’ll be strengthened in whatever circumstances you find yourself.

    I’ll endeavor to be more encouraging.

  18. Eric Dunn Avatar
    Eric Dunn

    Once again. A perspective without diversion. Wonderful!

  19. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Eric,
    The revelation of Christ among us is inexorable – the love of God is unabated. Merry Christmas!

  20. Christa dolejsi Avatar
    Christa dolejsi

    ‘The revelation of Christ among us is unstoppable – the love of God unabated’ That’s Hope! That’s Good News! to keep one walking this path.

  21. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    “The mystery of the Kingdom of God is made known to a heart that asks, that seeks, that knocks. It is a heart that has returned to the desire that is given to us in the gift of our nature.”

    A truly wonderful statement to evoke the “apocalypse” of God-with-us! Christmas reveals that our nature is graced in Christ. Christmas reveals that “Christ in you” is a hidden reality in all things, ready to be born. It has always been this way – “from all the ages” – and always will be, universally – “among the Gentiles.” I admit I struggle with the notion of a literal, historical “end of the world.” But I certainly believe in endings. They happen all the time.

    And in new beginnings.

    Christ is Born!

  22. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Hello Manfred and Fr. Stephen.

    As a believing and practicing Catholic, I might be able to offer some personal insight into your discussion.

    I cannot speak for every Catholic of course, but I know I am just as pressured and influenced by the surrounding culture as I am encouraged and edified by the lectionary and the teaching of the Church. It is a constant battle; that of being in the world, but to not be of the world.

    In terms of Advent, we are very blessed to have a priest who speaks not only of the first historical coming of Jesus Christ and Christ´s eventual second coming, but also about the inner world of all of us. We are being encouraged to seek the Advent of Christ everyday in our inner being; to create a Bethlehem somewhere deep inside us for Christ to be reborn into again and again. Our priest seems very concerned with spiritual transformation rather than theological information.

    For many years I thought … well … Jesus Christ´s birth happened a long time ago in the past. It is something I can remember and ponder. I also though Jesus Christ will come again in glory sometime in the future. It is something I can hope for and look forward to. What do I need to do in the meantime between these two events? Lead people to Christ and live a good, moral, sanctified life. That was about the size of it.

    I don´t want to be critical of my other fellow Catholics, for I cannot know their hearts, but my coming to Catholicism as someone who loves Orthodoxy and who was for nearly 30 years a Protestant evangelical is an altogether different experience (I think) than that of a cradle Catholic. I think many of my fellow Catholic brothers and sisters who have been Catholic all their lives are still caught living that moralist paradigm between Christ´s first coming and his second coming.

    I asked our priest one day about the spiritual hunger for inner transformation among those in his parish. He said very few were interested in this. I find that sad and disappointing.

  23. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Fr. Stephen wrote:

    “The mystery of the Kingdom of God is made known to a heart that asks, that seeks, that knocks. It is a heart that has returned to the desire that is given to us in the gift of our nature.”

    What desire are you speaking of, specifically, Fr. Stephen?

  24. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Owen said:

    “I admit I struggle with the notion of a literal, historical “end of the world.”

    May I ask why Owen?

  25. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Matthew,
    In the writings of St. Dionysius, he speaks of our desire (eros) for God – for Beauty, Goodness, Truth. It is inherent within us.

  26. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    Matthew,
    Thanks for asking. I used to think I always had clear reasons for my beliefs. The older I get, however, the more uncertain I am about this. And that’s okay.

    Within the last 2 years, I came to the end of almost 15 years of academic schooling in the area of Christian studies. I stopped because something happened inside me; I burned out hard. I could not pick up a nonfiction book for close to a year, and this included the Bible. After becoming a Christian 20 years ago, I devoured the Bible on a daily basis, reading it over and over again. Mention a passage, especially in the NT, and I can still mentally see it on the page! (I boast.) Then I pursued the academic study I mentioned above, and something eventually “broke” inside me.

    The boast I made above I now commit to the flames. For wisdom does not come from books. I realized this truth in a very visceral way. Neither scientific nor historical facts save us. Scriptures – including a literal reading thereof – do not save us. God saves us. He grants a holy spirit, and Christ is born in us. This inner realization is what the scriptures point to, imo. For me, this is the one thing necessary.

  27. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    Matthew,
    Right or wrong, my own eschatological viewpoint is summed up in Luke 17:20-21.

    Now when He was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, He answered them and said, “The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, ‘See here! ‘ or ‘See there! ‘ For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you.”

  28. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Owen,
    Thank you for sharing this experience. I went through something similar (after a fashion). I remember when it dawned on me that I had not read any fiction over the space of several years. I decided it wasn’t healthy. So, I slowly picked up fiction again. Now, I always read fiction, at least at bedtime (mostly I read mystery stories – not violent – not stressful – mostly in Britain – and I like it to be very geographical in its story-telling because I like studying maps of Britain). A young man in my parish, back in the day, was preparing to go to seminary. Meeting with our Archbishop, he asked, “What should I be reading this next year in order to prepare for seminary?” The Bishop said, “Don’t read theology. Read good literature.” Very wise advice. There’s more “theology” in a Dostoevsky novel than in 10 books of theology, on the whole. Though, there’s not a lot of theology in the mysteries I read…alas.

    Interestingly, when the pandemic hit, I was newly retired. I decided to read some good literature. I read Moby Dick for the first time. Interesting book that was weirder than I expected.

    As to eschatology: I confess the words of the Creed but I’m not sure what that looks like. When it comes, the Creed will be clear what it means. The end of the world is less than 2 decades away for me (I suspect). I try to stay ready.

  29. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Thanks so much Owen and Fr. Stephen. I am a non-fiction guy who is also very close to mental and rational burnout.

    What is a good, non- violent fiction book you both can suggest?

  30. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Matthew,
    I recommend Flannery O’Connor (short stories). It’s profound (better than most theological works), and strangely entertaining. Anyone who has spent time in the American South (and has Catholic sympathies) should read all of her stuff.

    I highly recommend the book, Laurus, by the Russian writer, Eugene Vodolazkin. Some describe him as a new Dostoevsky. But, it’s a brilliant book – easily his best. Spiritual and theological, but in a way that only fiction can work.

    I hate to say this for fear of being misunderstood: But the Scriptures “work” because they have a character that is more like fiction than like theory. There are “good stories.” Our academic study of Scripture often loses this feel of things. We torture Scripture instead of reading it.

  31. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Thanks so much Fr. Stephen. I read some F.O. stories in the beginning of my college days. I guess I need to revisit them.

  32. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    Fr. Stephen,
    The words of our Archbishop, “Read good literature,” were the inspiration for beginning a men’s literature group at our parish. (The ladies already had a book club.) I first heard the quote on your blog. So far, we’ve read several Steinbeck books, and now we’re reading Dostoyevsky’s The Brothers Karamazov. One of our priests is a former literature teacher, and he leads the group. It’s been a tremendous blessing to me.

  33. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Owen,
    What a great idea. It’s of note that none other than Fr. Seraphim Rose gave the same recommendation back in the day.

  34. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    Matthew,
    Here are some works of fiction that interest me, in no particular order. Some are Christian, some are not. Most have a spiritual or philosophical focus. Some are just really beautiful literature. 🙂

    Of Human Bondage by W. Somerset Maugham
    Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes
    The Neverending Story by Michael Ende
    The Glass Bead Game by Hermann Hesse
    Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy
    East of Eden by John Steinbeck
    Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell
    Frankenstein by Mary Shelley
    The Razor’s Edge by W. Somerset Maugham
    Titus Groan by Mervyn Peake
    Musashi by Eiji Yoshikawa
    Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
    Island by Aldous Huxley
    Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse
    Kenogaia by David Bentley Hart
    Watership Down by Richard Adams
    Laurus by Eugene Vodolazkin
    Moby Dick by Herman Melville
    Roland in Moonlight by David Bentley Hart
    The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

  35. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    I second (or third!) the recommendation of Laurus. Certain parts continue to stay with me several years after reading it

  36. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Dee,
    I’ve read Laurus at least three times, though I think it’s actually four. Not sure what other book I could say that about. I would say that the value of a book, to me, can be measured by how many times you read it. I’ve read several of Dostoevsky’s more than once, and a couple of them more than twice. I’ve read the Way of a Pilgrim probably half a dozen times, maybe more. This last one, I re-read because I find it soothing to my soul. It has a rhythm that I’ve not found elsewhere.

    My wife makes me look illiterate by comparison. Her love of good literature is wonderful. Since my retirement we spend increasing amounts of time together. It’s hard to believe that, having known her for more than 50 years, I’m still learning things about her – and that includes listening to her talk about what she likes about a particular book.

  37. Owen Kelly Avatar
    Owen Kelly

    Fr. Stephen,
    Do you have a translation you prefer for the Way of a Pilgrim? I’ve heard some translators miss certain Orthodox terms, like mistaking “prayer of the heart” for “heartfelt prayer.”

  38. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Thanks so much Owen, Dee and Fr. Stephen!

    Owen: Man … that is quite a list! Thanks so much!

    Fr. Stephen: What on earth is “The Grand Inquisitor” about????

  39. Manfred Meyer Avatar
    Manfred Meyer

    @Matthew

    You write:
    “I asked our priest one day about the spiritual hunger for inner transformation among those in his parish. He said very few were interested in this. I find that sad and disappointing.”

    My journey is different from yours: I left the Catholic Church for the Orthodox Church; then stopped going to Church altogether because of being fed up with a certain issue; anyways: The whole phrase “spiritual hunger for transformation” sounds odd for someone raised as a Catholic, and I think rightly so.
    I once read a text by, actually not a Roman Catholic, but a Swiss Reformed Protestant about the simile of the mustard seed where he stated, en passant, that a little bit of mustard gives flavour and enhances, but too much of it, and you spoil the whole experience of the meal.

    You can go to church and feel sad and disappointed about the lack of “hunger for inner transformation” of others.
    Or you can go there and rejoice that others are there, too, if only for the reason that you would not be able to financially sustain the parish on your own.
    Which option is better?

  40. Manfred Meyer Avatar
    Manfred Meyer

    @Father Stephen

    Father Stephen,

    1. Survey:

    You provided the link to the Pew Research Center survey; I did not read all of it, but skimmed through it.
    For me, it looks more like a prep sheet for a television quiz than a design for a survey to seriously find out what people know about different religions. One can answer questions correctly without ever having read substantial portions, or anything at all, of the core texts, simply if one reads newspapers once in a while or does crossword puzzles (I could answer a few questions without really knowing anything at all about that specific point).

    During my studies, I had to do, not much, but a little, statistics plus interpreting, and also designing, surveys: If I had to design a survey where I can hire some interns or grad students who don’t know much about the issue investigated themselves to conduct the survey and do the post-survey compilation and presentation of statistics: I would go for a multiple choice design.
    If I really want to find something out: I would go for open questions.

    Concerning specifically the issue of the Real Presence:
    I think the survey does not tell us anything at all; it is not completely false to describe them as symbols, and in fact when communicating with people they perceive as outsiders, Catholics might prefer that language (I would have done so) for not being misunderstood.
    One can also pick the supposedly sole correct answer, but still have a false conception of the Real Presence (in one of his interviews with Peter Seewald Cardinal Ratzinger/Pope Benedikt explained what Real Presence does NOT mean).

    Pew Research’s “About Us”:

    “We generate a foundation of facts that enriches the public dialogue and supports sound decision-making. We are nonprofit, nonpartisan and nonadvocacy. We value independence, objectivity, accuracy, rigor, humility, transparency and innovation.”

    https://www.pewresearch.org/about/

    Accuracy.
    Rigor.

    See here: Knowledge of Christianity: Aspects of Catholicism:

    “The Catholic Church teaches that in Communion, bread and wine become body/blood of Christ”
    — I had always thought that they become body/blood of Christ already before communion.

    https://www.pewresearch.org/religion/2019/07/23/which-religious-groups-know-what-about-religion/

    See here:

    What is commemorated on Easter Sunday; sole correct answer, supposedly: Resurrection.
    I had always thought that during each Mass, and each Divine Liturgy, including those on Easter, Christians commemorate the Last Supper.

    https://www.pewresearch.org/religion/2019/07/23/what-americans-know-about-religion/

    Accuracy.

    Rigor.

    2. Dostoevsky:

    I read “Brothers Karamasov” twenty years ago or so, after in some article someone called it the “greatest Christian novel ever” — and I was deeply disappointed.
    The language was just awkward — that might have been the translator’s fault.
    But more: I found the long passages with Father Zosima just disrupting the flow of the story (Marcel Reich-Ranicki, Germany’s most famous post-war literary critic, once said something like:
    Good writers write to tell a story. Bad Writers write to convey a message.)

    And I found the “Grand Inquisitor” a piece of anti-Catholic bigotry; Dostoevsky could have placed such a figure in Russia during the persecution of Old Believers.
    Instead, he placed him in Spain.
    Supposedly, each spring, Dostoevsky prayed daily:
    “Grant me to see my own faults and not to judge my brother.”

  41. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Manfred,
    Yes. Surveys are frequently problematic – and this topic is hard to get right (the Real Presence).

    As to Dostoevsky – yes, he had a very strong, critical understanding of Catholicism. And, some people find his work almost unreadable. Some find it brilliant. I doubt that the fault is in the reader or Dostoevsky. It just doesn’t work for some.

  42. Nathan Fischer Avatar
    Nathan Fischer

    Father, I have wanted so badly to read Dostoevsky. I have saved quotes you’ve shared through your blog, I’ve read some of Elder Zosima from The Brothers Karamosov, and I’ve tried numerous times to read multiple of his novels. I cannot for the life of me keep the names straight, and I hit points where it is an absolute slog for me to get through and I cannot manage it. It has long bothered me.

    I appreciate your comment, that it just “doesn’t work” for some. I’m not quite sure why I felt ashamed that I couldn’t manage to get through Dostoevsky, but apparently I did until reading your comment! It was something of a relief. Thank you!

  43. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Nathan,
    I completely understand. I had a semester of Russian in college (which helped a bit in comprehending the constant shifting of names – there’s the formal name, and lots of nick names with subtle shades of varying intimacy). I’m also a bit of a Russophile, at least on a certain level. So, that helps. But, that’s not everyone.

    Interestingly, in Russia, I am told that one of their favorite English authors is Dickens – they think of him as a sort of English Dostoevsky. I was charmed when I heard that. Tolkien is also popular.

  44. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Manfred,
    You’re pretty much right in your critique of the survey. All I can say is that modern secular culture is probably one of the deepest challenges that the Church faces – and I’m not alone in thinking that. Lewis, Chesterton, and many others would agree – from across the Christian spectrum. If my writing on that topic is unhelpful, then I have no defense. What is unhelpful to one might be just the thing for another.

    A short thought on “comparative denominationalism.” It’s sort of a waste of time (at least for me). Frequently, there are incommensurates. No Christian group is without flaws (including Orthodoxy) and its naive and silly to think otherwise. All of us are deeply challenged by the same forces and none of us have just the right answer.

    This article, The Church is the Cross through History, pretty much sums up my thoughts in all this. If its of use, fine. If not, well, it just it what it is.

    I pray that, whatever you do in your own struggles, that you find grace and the peace that comes with integrity (in its fullest meaning). God be with you.

  45. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    Father,
    Similar to you I also find the book Way of the Pilgrim soothing, especially when my heart is troubled. I’m not sure how many times I have read it. But I started again for my ‘Nativity readings’. And now I’m inspired to go back to Laurus.

    I wish I had more time for such readings. But I’m grateful for the time I do have for such edifying readings. A little at a time but glory to God for His Grace for my persistence.

    I also give thanks for His grace to keep me in His Church. In our modern society (speaking for myself in the USA culture) it seems that there is such a shoppers approach in our lives that the mentality goes practically unnoticed.

    Just like we might hunt for a house to call our own, we look for the right fit aesthetically and socially. When we look for a church for many of us there is also a shopper’s approach. We might look at the theological stance of the priest as part of the bargain of the ‘new home’.

    Some of us converts decided that renovations were necessary before we could feel at home. Obtaining approval, some of us made renovations. Some of us have shopper’s remorse and leave altogether and some of us break off to make a new parish.

    At one point this apparent turmoil upset me to such an extent that I wondered whether I had the strength to hold on. Rather than hold on to poisonous anger or bitterness, I begged Christ for His love in my heart. To be honest I continue to struggle. But returning to this blog, returning to the Liturgy as much as I can (regardless of the desert in my heart), reading St Silouan and his spiritual children’s words, and the grace of our Lord for His communion and last but not least a daily prayer (I don’t want to call it a ‘rule’ but I do this regardless of the state of my mind/heart) within His communion, all keep me, in His Church. Like a Ship in high troubled seas, steady as She goes.

    Glory to God!
    Christ is born! Thy Kingdom come!

  46. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Dee,
    Our “style” of argumentation in the modern world tends to be a sort of triumphalism. I see a fair amount of that in some examples of “internet Orthodox apologetics.” It troubles me in that it can be unrealistic and setting newcomers up for disappointment. It’s why I recommend the article that I cited earlier “The Church is the Cross through History.” Christ Himself consistently tells those who follow Him that they should expect a Cross – they will be persecuted, hated, even killed. He warns the Apostles about the temptation to lord it over one another. The Letters of the New Testament are filled with examples of Church problems. That is honest Christianity.

    I like to compare the Church to marriage (a very New Testament approach). When I’ve done pre-marital counseling, the last thing I’m interested in doing is talking a couple into getting married. You look for red flags. And you try to give them accurate information and help them prepare for a life-long commitment.

    Having been an Anglican priest for 20 years prior to being received into Orthodoxy, I had no “rosy” assumptions about Orthodoxy. I had already had plenty of examples of just how problematic relationships can be in parishes and how far we fall short. Indeed, when I came into the OCA, there was a huge conflict going on with ROCOR in my neck of the woods, one that resulted in a difficult law suit. Long story, that. It didn’t make me hesitate to become Orthodox – it only made me grit my teeth and sober up, if you will.

    Last year, on my 70th birthday, I wrote an article in which I quoted the mouse, Reepicheep (from The Dawn Treader):

    “My own plans are made. While I can, I sail east in the Dawn Treader. When she fails me, I paddle east in my coracle. When she sinks, I shall swim east with my four paws. And when I can swim no longer, if I have not reached Aslan’s country, or shot over the edge of the world into some vast cataract, I shall sink with my nose to the sunrise.”

    It’s a good vision to hold in my heart (having added an additional year to the 70). My boat is still floating…

  47. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Great words Dee and Fr. Stephen!

  48. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    Dear Father!
    May your boat continue to float to the sunrise!
    Thank you for your beautiful response!

    I had a bit of a too rosy picture at the very beginning of my walk with Christ in the Orthodox Church. There was indeed a lot of joy at first, and then days before my baptism, just like a marriage, I got cold feet and feared the Cross I was about to climb up on. My catechist priest did not sugar-coat the path. I was invited to take up the Cross or step down from it. Ultimately for me, I knew I had only one choice. I chose the Cross and was baptized into His Life, and admittedly sometimes this Life feels like an unbearable fire. But I stand in the fire against all odds, here I am. I cannot do this without Christ, and without the Holy Comforter. Glory to God for His mercy.

    I’m inspired now to read the article you mentioned.

    Thank you dear Father! My 70th was yesterday. Such a wonderful passage ( Dawn Treader) you bring for me to keep my eyes, my heart and my efforts towards the sunrise.

  49. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    Dear Matthew,
    Thank you so much for your participation here!!

  50. Byron Avatar
    Byron

    An interesting list of books! A tangential note, perhaps: of late, I’ve wanted to read Classics. Not deep classics; children’s books. I’ve purchased two copies of The Wind In the Willows (two artists I very much like) and plan on picking up Winnie the Pooh and reading it this week. I may even buy a copy of Charlotte’s Web (the only one of these three I remember reading as a child) and read it.

    I also have The Green Fairy book on my bookshelf, although I have not decided to pick it up. Our book club is reading Dracula. I’ve been told it’s an amazingly Eucharistic book so I also look forward to reading it. But nothing too heavy. The world is hurting my brain. I want to relax and enjoy something simple and entertaining.

  51. Nathan Fischer Avatar
    Nathan Fischer

    Byron, I am with you. I only came to admire and appreciate children’s stories later in life, largely thanks to my wife. We didn’t have many in my house when I was young. There are so many good ones. The Velveteen Rabbit has become one of my favorites (I think of it as theosis for little children).

    Rediscovering good children’s literature has become a great joy for me. And an enjoyable reprieve from the heaviness of life.

  52. Michael Bauman Avatar
    Michael Bauman

    Fr. “The Grand Inquisitor” is a story about a man who takes the power of the Great Inquisition too personally. It explored the healthy limits of power on the human soul. Squary.

  53. Michael Bauman Avatar
    Michael Bauman

    Father, you list several western ‘favorites’ in comparison to Dostoevsky — what of William Faulkner?

  54. Michael Bauman Avatar
    Michael Bauman

    “Scary”; not Squary.

  55. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Despite my Southern roots, I’ve not read Faulkner.

  56. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Manfred said:

    “The whole phrase “spiritual hunger for transformation” sounds odd for someone raised as a Catholic, and I think rightly so.”

    Why rightly so? If inner, ontological transformation is indeed the very essence of salvation, is it not beneficial to share this message even if it sounds odd? I may need to slow down though … thanks for the reminder.

    Manfred also said:

    “You can go to church and feel sad and disappointed about the lack of “hunger for inner transformation” of others. Or you can go there and rejoice that others are there, too, if only for the reason that you would not be able to financially sustain the parish on your own. Which option is better?”

    Guilty as charged Manfred. I shouldn´t be critical of where others are spiritually speaking. I have enough to do in my own spiritual life. I have a plank in my own eye to deal with. Thank you.

    I should rejoice that others are in the parish as well, but not for financial reasons. Rather for a genuine feeling of community regardless of where those who sit and stand next to me are on their journey of inner transformation.

    I´m just excited Manfred. That is all. I want my fellow Catholic brothers and sisters to realize and internalize the essence of the salvific journey. As a matter of fact, I want all people to experience this. That said, maybe I am not at a place yet to be telling others about all this. As already stated, I have enough to do in my own spiritual life.

    I wish all the best, Manfred, for 2025 and beyond.

  57. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    For those of you who enjoy children´s stories, I cannot more highly recommend the following book:

    “Tending the Heart of Virtue – How Classic Stories Awaken a Child´s Moral Imagination” – Vigen Guroian

  58. Byron Avatar
    Byron

    Nathan, I’ve never read The Velveteen Rabbit! I may pick up a copy.

    Thanks Matthew! I will check into this as well.

  59. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    There’s a short film of the Velveteen Rabbit. Back in the 80’s, I used to show it to my teen youth group at Church.

  60. Nathan Fischer Avatar
    Nathan Fischer

    Matthew, my wife would whole-heartedly agree and likewise commend Guroian’s book! It’s on my to-read list. One of these days…

  61. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    Matthew,
    I understand your interest and need to share your experience of inner transformation with others. I once upon a time had been disappointed in coffee hour after Liturgy that there wasn’t much of an interest to discuss such experiences. Conversation was social and friendly but often slipped into idle talk. On some occasions the conversations were edifying.

    This is just an idea that I’ll share: if your parish has a coffee hour or if you strike up friendship, how about suggesting a reading group where edifying books are read and discussed? Suggest books in which inner transformation might be among the topics.

    A couple more thoughts: the way of inner transformation is for some people difficult because in some cases such an experience can feel like fire. Or in some cases the experience evades expression in words. This is a holy experience not one easy to express in cultures so attuned to secular life.

    I have a colleague at work who is. Roman Catholic theologian. It’s a blessing to me to have opportunities to talk with him on occasions. I’m not sure now how the conversation came to this subject, but he mentioned that theosis is in the Catholic tradition but it had not been emphasised. He referred to my Othodox theology as “Patristic” as opposed to “Augustinian” or “Thomist” (Aquinas). I took his word for it. Although I’m not sure about that myself but I suppose most of my reading is in the Patristic Fathers.

    I just want to encourage your continued enthusiasm and joy in Christ! May our Lord bless you and your family in the new year and Blessed Theophany!

  62. Louise Avatar
    Louise

    Thank you! I’ve always felt this in my heart, even as a little girl–the idea that 1. I am not of this world, and 2. the enforced cheerful merriment around Christmas attempted to cover up a more serious–yes, apocalyptic even!–mystery.

    Your words remind me of lesson 182 in A Course in Miracles. This is just the first paragraph but the whole of it is worth reading, I think:

    “This world you seem to live in is not home to you. And somewhere in your mind you know that this is true. A memory of home keeps haunting you, as if there were a place that called you to return, although you do not recognize the voice, nor what it is the voice reminds you of. Yet still you feel an alien here, from somewhere all unknown. Nothing so definite that you could say with certainty you are an exile here. Just a persistent feeling, sometimes not more than a tiny throb, at other times hardly remembered, actively dismissed, but surely to return to mind again.”

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