The Soul of a Child and a Stone That Sings

As Christ enters Jerusalem on the Sunday before His passion, St. Matthew tells us that the children began to shout, “Hosanna to the Son of David!” St. Luke tells us that the Pharisees asked Christ to silence His disciples. He responded: “I tell you that if these should keep silent, the stones would immediately cry out.”

Something wonderful is taking place as Christ comes to Jerusalem. The King returns to claim His throne (the Cross is frequently described as a “throne” in Orthodox hymnography). That which had been hidden from all ages was moving towards the moment of its revelation. The veil between humanity and God was shortly to be taken away.

Who wouldn’t shout and sing?

Noisy, conflicted souls, for one. Darkened and hardened souls for another.

Children and stones have something in common: they are neither conflicted, darkened, nor hardened. They have a cleanness and simplicity that sings and shouts when everything else is trapped in its own miasma.

I have heard confessions for over forty years. Listening to an adult, you can often hear the tension and torment within a soul. We are often confused about our sin, just as we are unsure of the path towards goodness. Listening to a child is instructive. They are not without sin, but generally, they know the difference between right and wrong and can be surprisingly straight-forward. From my perspective as a confessor, I frequently come away with a sense of awe. It is little wonder to me that Christ issued such a serious warning to anyone who would cause a child to stumble.

But the wounds come. Staying in a single parish for decades affords the experience of watching someone go from childhood to adult. There is a slow process that tracks the accumulation of soul-wounds. What was once simplicity and relative purity slips into the complexity and confusion that haunts the inner life of our adult worlds. Listening to children, I pray within myself, “Lord, when did I ever speak so clearly, so cleanly?”

Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them, and said, “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me.” (Matt. 18:2-5)

The wounds come. None of us escapes the hurt and pain of human relationships. No parents are perfect. No siblings are ideal. Classmates and even best friends engage in shaming and bullying. Teachers, in their own brokenness, unwittingly give unintended lessons to a child. Over time, the conflict, the darkness and the hardening set in. We lose our capacity for awe and wonder and with it a clear view of the world. Our access to God seems blocked by the opacity of our own wounds. Reason cannot get us there. The wounds are deeper than that.

Christ descends into this world of wounds in the Incarnation. The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness does not overcome it. But, in many cases, the darkness seeks to assert its will. From the very beginning the darkness sought to kill the Christ Child and we see that opposition continue throughout His ministry. But Christ came into the darkness in order to heal it.

He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him. But as many as received Him, to them He gave the power to become children of God… (John 1:11–12)

There seems to be a strong emphasis in Christ’s ministry towards healing the lame and the blind. St. Matthew tells us that after the triumphal entry into Jerusalem Christ cleansed the Temple.

Then the blind and the lame came to Him in the temple, and He healed them. (Matt. 21:14)

This is where we often find ourselves. Blind, we see darkness instead of light. Lame, we seem frozen, unable to change or to move closer to our goal. But Christ sits in the Temple, the place of the deep heart, and begins the patient work that is our salvation. To as many as receive Him, He gives power to become children – to enter the Kingdom of God.

Being an adult, much less being an old man in the eighth decade of life, it is easy to be deceived into thinking that childhood is something long past. I have had some significant decades through the years, but my thoughts (our thoughts) constantly come back to the first decade of life – the time of childhood. Those years have a primacy in our lives that never wanes. It is those primary years that echo through each of the following decades, revisiting themselves in the midst of changing circumstances, ringing changes on the bells that were hung in those earliest years.

My paternal grandfather, on his death-bed, called for his mother. The year was 1989 – his mother died in 1928. Having reached his end, he reached for his beginning and an innocence that had long been buried. His other words came steadily as he moved in and out of consciousness: “Lord, have mercy!”

In the West, the traditional prayer to the Mother of God concludes in this manner: “Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and in the hour of our death.” When Christ entered Jerusalem, his mother was with him. Her presence is not mentioned until He is crucified. But she is there, at the hour of His death, her own soul pierced by the sword that had been foretold.

It was in this time in the Holy City that Christ said:

“O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the one who kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to her! How often I wanted to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!”

The Savior has entered the Temple. We pray, “Hide me beneath the shadow of Your wings!” May God gather his children, and may we be numbered among them.

With the stones we cry, “Hosanna to the Son of David!”

About Fr. Stephen Freeman

Fr. Stephen is a retired Archpriest of the Orthodox Church in America. He is also author of Everywhere Present: Christianity in a One-Storey Universe, and Face to Face: Knowing God Beyond Our Shame, as well as the Glory to God podcast series on Ancient Faith Radio.



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27 responses to “The Soul of a Child and a Stone That Sings”

  1. Mims Robert E Avatar
    Mims Robert E

    Perspective that draws on mortal experience and memories, and spiritual epiphany.
    Thank you, Father.

  2. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Robert,
    You’re welcome. It’s going to be a very rich Pascha this year.

  3. Eric Dunn Avatar

    I am being received into the Church today through Chrismation. This was very fitting to remind me what’s really essential. The Lord has brought me home where I can be a child again.

  4. Lewis Hodge Avatar
    Lewis Hodge

    I have worked with children (K-12) for five decades. The have caused me to ponder what kind of adult I am. Your descriptions are true and sobering. You have led me to think that I should begin each day thinking of myself as a child, though a very old one. Perhaps I can yet become more of a mature child than a childish adult.

  5. Mallory Avatar
    Mallory

    This brought me to tears, for my child and how I fear and dread her future wounds and the mistakes I will make and already have—tears for the unhealed wounds in my mother, and myself, and how they engulfed us in darkness. I always think “I will break the pattern” but perhaps it’s wiser to know I don’t have that power alone, instead to say “I pray Christ transforms me into a little child who can be a truly loving mother”

    May Christ heal us all. Thank you for your writing.

  6. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    When I was young
    It seemed that life was so wonderful
    A miracle
    Oh, it was beautiful, magical
    And all the birds in the trees
    Well, they’d be singing so happily
    Oh, joyfully
    Oh, playfully watching me

    But then they sent me away
    To teach me how to be sensible
    Logical
    Oh, responsible, practical
    And then they showed me a world
    Where I could be so dependable
    Oh, clinical
    Oh, intellectual, cynical

    The Logical Song – Supertramp

  7. juliania Avatar
    juliania

    Thank you, Father Stephen. Your mention that the mother of Jesus isn’t mentioned as being with him in Jerusalem until his crucifixion gave me the thought that the disciple John was also specifically there, and as the two were dedicated to each other in a last benediction by Jesus, perhaps that is how his Gospel text is worded in comparison to the other three. In a sense, John is being given to be a child again,even at the foot of the cross, and one might even suppose that his former designation as one of the ‘sons of thunder’ might mean he had had a very strict father. So that, having known this, Jesus had already been parenting John in recognizing this need from the beginning. There is a story that when John was so old he had to be carried into church, this great theologian could only say “Little children, love one another.” A fatherly thing to say, a continuing connection to saving grace. It’s a hard thing to love everyone as adults; loving the child in each is easier. We can do it.
    And that is how fatherhood in God is so importantly not a blasphemy since it isn’t limited to one or the other of our human forms, but is spiritually strong in both motherhood and fatherhood equally. That saying coming down from the cross is like another annunciation, needing no human response because humanly given, as that has been the divine gift already answered in the first annunciation.
    It’s lovely that Christ can father children from the very stones! My own father was away at war from when I was two weeks old to when I was five. God was fathering me then is a wonderful thought. Dostoievski says about the children who die (and we have that happening ) that they are bold in God’s presence, close to his throne.

  8. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    It is the stone of my heart that sings., Hosanna Son of David. Glory to God for His mercy!

  9. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    I think east and west celebrate Pascha/Easter on the same day this year. ??

    If so … I am really pleased!

  10. Dee of St Herman Avatar
    Dee of St Herman

    Yes, indeed it is really nice! I have a Roman Catholic colleague whom I enjoy talking with at my university. He has expressed interest and has done some study in Patristics. It is joyful to celebrate Pascha with him.

  11. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Matthew,
    They line up pretty much once every seven years. There have been rumors that the present Pope might decide to adopt the Orthodox manner of dating Easter so that they would line up every year. Orthodoxy could not make such an adaptation simply because our ecclesiastical life does not have the kind of centralized authority to pull it off. But it is certainly convenient when things coincide.

  12. Mark Spurlock Avatar
    Mark Spurlock

    Father Stephen and Matthew,

    I read that because of the way the calendars work, if nothing changes, the times they line up will become rarer and rarer until eventually it never happens. That is hundreds of years in the future, however.

  13. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Mark,
    Though some of the Orthodox use the “Old Calendar” (the Julian), others use the Gregorian (the New Calendar). Nevertheless, all of the Orthodox use the same manner of calculating the date of Pascha – and that manner is according to the Julian (more or less – this is the case). The Patriarch of Constantinople unilaterally decided to revise the Calendar to agree with the Gregorian and a portion of the Orthodox refused to go along with it.

    The RC unilaterally revised the calendar back in 1582 – the Julian had increasingly gotten out-of-sync with nature itself (things like the Vernal Equinox were no longer on their original date). The problem with the Julian, as I understand it, was that like the proper adjustments in the leap years that correct for the “slippage” between the calendar and astronomy. Protestants did not accept the 1582 changes until the 1700’s, and then in fits and starts.

    So, like a number of things, Orthodoxy is stuck with a division in practice and some unresolved arguments. The one unifying matter has been the date of Pascha, which all Orthodox, New and Old Calendar, use the Julian (Old) to calculate Pascha. But, as you noted, Mark, the Julian Calendar will slowly continue to slip its sync with astronomy such that it will no longer accidentally line up with the Gregorian.

    These are matters for bishops.

    For me, it’s a simple reminder that we are historical beings, and, try as we might, we cannot simply ignore history, including the arguments of those who went before us.

  14. Alan Avatar
    Alan

    Father, this is a very sad post. Sad for me, because it makes me think of all the things I’ve said and done in life that have wounded……virtually everyone I’ve ever come into contact with.

    Lord have mercy.

  15. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Alan,
    Our lives are as they are. Frequently, we live an existence that was shaped for us – that is – we live somewhat unconsciously. In hindsight, I can see lots of times and places where this has been so for me. There are a few that I would to God I could take back. But, having your eyes open, regardless of the pain involved, is a good thing. The point of life isn’t to have lived pleasantly.

    There is daily the opportunity for repentance – to pray for all whom we have harmed. Christ is in it all and always has been. What we have meant for evil, He, by His death and resurrection, has meant (and still means) for good. All the more reason to carry everything to Him in His Pascha and lay it at His feet.

  16. Mallory Avatar
    Mallory

    Father Stephen,
    When you wrote to Alan “Frequently, we live an existence that was shaped for us – that is – we live somewhat unconsciously.” it really hits home. Sometimes I feel I am in a pre-written script.

    It also brought to mind a question I had this morning when I was reading Genesis–I’ve gone back to the very beginning after finishing the NT. It read to me that Adam and Eve are set up, it reads to me as a very clear test, almost a trick: Here’s a beautiful garden for both of you, naked and unashamed, and you are welcome to all the trees that bear fruit–except for this one here, if you even touch this one, you will die. I guess my question is, why put it there in the first place? If this place “is good” why is this death-tree test necessary? Is it because God already knows all of time past present and future so the Fall and the subsequent suffering serves a purpose we will never understand until the end of the world? I welcome any corrections in my reading or understanding.

    Thank you for your patience!

  17. Alan Avatar
    Alan

    Thank you Father for your most encouraging reply.

  18. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Mallory,
    In contrast to my statement to Alan – in the Garden, they are not living an “unconscious” script. They were told very clearly what not to do and its consequences. But that’s another matter.

    I do not mean that we are living out a scripted existence. But, as the late Fr. Alexander Schmemann once observed, “The spiritual life consists in how you deal with what you’ve been dealt.” We do not choose the circumstances of our birth, our parents, and so much else. These are handed down to us, and they certainly “stack the deck” to a certain degree. This is necessarily the case in that we live in a historical world.

    I think one of the things that dogs our lives and thoughts are the lies of modernity – particularly notions like “success,” “happiness,” “the American Dream,” etc. These notions only fit a small number of people and torment the rest of us. They don’t actually fit the life we live, by and large.

    All of this is the reason I urge people to “live small.” Do the next good thing. The commandments of Christ are simple: love God, love your neighbor, forgive others, be generous. None of that has anything to say about career, skills, etc.

    As to Adam and Eve. Why put the tree there? It could have been something else. The question is really, “Why put any ‘no’ in the Garden?” The answer, at least the best one I know, is that it is there so that they can be free. It’s not a test. It’s a gift. It’s a gift that makes love possible.

    It’s not an evil tree. It’s a tree that might even have had a different use at a later time. We don’t get that far.

    Read the story as a parable. Ponder it as a parable rather than a forced, historical necessity.

    In any given moment, what is the Tree in my life? What simple thing am I asked to do? Do the next good thing.

    Also remember, the story has a happy ending. We see it at Pascha. In the icon of Christ’s trampling down death by death, He takes Adam and Eve by the hand to lead them out. The Orthodox Church honors them as saints.

  19. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Fr. Stephen said:

    “I think one of the things that dogs our lives and thoughts are the lies of modernity – particularly notions like “success,” “happiness,” “the American Dream,” etc. These notions only fit a small number of people and torment the rest of us. They don’t actually fit the life we live, by and large.

    All of this is the reason I urge people to “live small.” Do the next good thing. The commandments of Christ are simple: love God, love your neighbor, forgive others, be generous. None of that has anything to say about career, skills, etc.”

    I have been thinking a lot about this today. It seems that the idea of “living small” was never part of the Protestantism I was in. The Parable of the Talents was taught time and time again as though a follower of Christ needed to be an investment banker! The Protestant work ethic was woven through the Gospel in definitive ways. It was as though I would be a big disappointment to God if I didn´t go and do BIG things for Jesus and His kingdom. It was really an exhausting theological paradigm.

    At 55, I see things a lot differently now. It really was never about being the best at everything the world says is good. It isn´t about being successful and placing a Jesus veneer over all of our worldly achievements. I don´t think it is even about winning the world for Christ in an evangelistic sense. I think it is about “living small” and tending the garden that is right in front of me with Godly love and generosity. It´s about be thankful to God for all that is true and good and beautiful.

    This is much easier said than done in a modern world that shakes its head at such notions of how things ought to be. A friend of mine goes to a Catholic monastery from time to time in Switzerland. He said to me that the brothers there are naive because they are not living like moderns (I think they have no internet). What strikes me about his comment is how it illustrates just how much the modern notion of reality is choking us all. So much so that even a visit to a quiet monastery stokes the fires of modern expectation!

  20. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    Fr. Stephen said:

    “Also remember, the story has a happy ending. We see it at Pascha. In the icon of Christ’s trampling down death by death, He takes Adam and Eve by the hand to lead them out. The Orthodox Church honors them as saints.”

    Without a doubt, the very best icon (IMO). I cannot wait for Pascha.

  21. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Matthew,
    I often think that this strange tendency to magnify certain “successful” personalities feeds the madness in our media – which is largely only about profits. Journalism has devolved into producing “click-bait” – again, for profit.

    It fascinates me that, as physics has progressed, the “atom” (which literally means “that which cannot be cut”) is understood to be made up of many smaller “sub-atomic” particles – which get stranger and stranger. It seems that world “turns” or “holds together” by that which is quite small.

    It is likely the case that only love is “large,” and that it is love that holds all things together. Love is inherently “small” because of its attention to the least.

  22. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    I attended a lecture recently in which a small comparison was made between early icons of “the Ladder” (as in St. John of the Ladder) and the Pascha icon of Christ trampling down death by death. In the Ladder, the monk at the top of the ladder is taken by the wrist by the figure of Christ who is helping him take the final step. That grabbing of the wrist is also present when Christ takes Adam and Eve out of Hades. In both cases, it’s the wrist rather than the hand. This betokens our weakness before Christ – that we cannot finally take that last step with help. We’re not using our “hand” to be saved, but are being pulled by the wrist.

    I find this deeply comforting. I can do a few things – but things easily slip through my fingers. “Pull me to paradise” seems an honest prayer. I, too, am waiting for Pascha – in every sense of that phrase.

  23. Jenny Avatar
    Jenny

    Father,

    He is not an Orthodox Saint, but Watchman Nee also write about our inability to hold onto Christ, and our complete dependence on His grasp, in his commentary on the Song of Songs:

    “When she recalls her original condition, she cannot help but be filled with humility. She cannot help but consider her emptiness, the vanity of her experience, the undependability of her mind, and the futility of her pursuit. Her only hope is the Lord. She realizes that whether she can endure to the end does not depend on her own endurance, but on the Lord’s preservation. No spiritual perfection can sustain a person until the Lord’s return. Everything depends on God and His preserving power. When she realizes this, she cannot help but exclaim, “Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm.” The heart is the place of love, while the arm is the place of strength. “Set me as permanently as a seal upon Your heart, and as indelibly as a seal upon Your arm. Just as the priests bore the Israelites upon their breasts and their shoulders, remember me constantly in Your heart and sustain me with Your arm. I know that I am weak and empty, and I am conscious of my powerlessness. Lord, I am a helpless person. If I try to preserve myself until Your coming, it will only bring shame to Your name and loss to myself. All my hopes are in Your love and power. I loved You before. But I know the undependability of that love. Now I look only to the love You have toward me. I held You once, and it seemed to be a powerful grip. But now I realize that even my strongest grip is just weakness. My trust is not in my holding power, but in Your holding power. I dare not speak of my love to You any longer. I dare not speak of my grasping of You any longer. From this point on, everything depends on Your strength and Your love.”

    I often think of that verse in the 10th chapter of John- that no one can take us out of His hand. He is faithful and true.

  24. Matthew Avatar
    Matthew

    I agree Fr. Stephen. Thanks so much for these thoughts today.

    I soon must go and tend the garden … 🙂

  25. Mallory Avatar
    Mallory

    Thank you, Fr. Stephen. Torture is an accurate way to describe the ideas of “success” in this world. I grew up in a family of academics and my mother in particular has a very cruel view towards anyone who is not successful in a worldly way. I have no such success, and she often expresses how much that pains her. It’s really a sickness in our society, and it hurts so many of us. Thank you for being a sane, compassionate reminder and true guide for what a meaningful life looks like. I only wish I had such wisdom in my life when I was growing up! I only felt I was somewhere very wrong, but with no alternative. Now I will get to tell my daughter, “Do the next good thing.” I pray I can show her real love, no matter what she does in this world!

    Bless everyone!

  26. Fr. Stephen Avatar

    Mallory,
    It is of extreme importance that we remember Christ’s specific promise that He is in the “least of these my brethren.”

    “Come unto me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest…”

    What you describe is a sickness that deeply infects certain segments of our culture. That we are governed (largely) by “elites” who believe that they know better what is good for one and for all has long been a hallmark of our culture. It’s not that we would be better governed by the incompetent – rather that incompetence is a pretty universal trait. The difference is that the elite refuse to admit their own incompetence. It has an arrogance that is the enemy of the grace of God (“He gives more grace to the humble”).

  27. Drewster2000 Avatar
    Drewster2000

    Fr. Stephen,

    I find this to be a very hopeful post, but I can see how it is not so for everyone.

    Can you accept that you’re a child? Can you freely admit you’re wounded? If so, then excellent! There is the narrow gate Christ spoke of. Walk through it. Don’t be deceived by its humble state or rough, wooden frame that appears to be built from the Cross itself. Go on through and you’ll find Paradise on the other side.

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